Monday, August 17, 2009

Minute to Minute


One thing that I have learned over the last week is that life changes on a dime. Alright, we all knew that already...and I certainly saw that the day I went into the hospital. To clarify, "MY" life changes on a dime. This illness is volatile and keeps me on my toes. The way that my brain talks to my body is random. The way my body responds is as well. I can be walking down the hall, and then my brain forgets to tell my feet to move. Or my brain misfires, my equilibrium is off, and I bounce through the doorway and off the walls like a pinball machine. I try to use my hands, and I look like I am going through withdrawals. This part I handle with humor.

My blood sugars are still unstable which is making my insulin intake difficult. My thyroid levels fluctuate, which is messing up digestion, metabolism, heart rate, and blood pressure. Even my body temperature is goofey. One minute, I will feel strong...and the next, I barely have the energy to breathe. This is where I get frustrated. It is hard to make plans and be part of the world when you do not know how you will feel in five minutes.

I attended a funeral today that reinstated what I have been feeling in my heart over the last few months. It was a good reminder. We are lucky to have EACH minute, no matter what they look like. We have an opportunity to be blessed and to bless others with each breath that we take. Quit looking at the future and horizon if it means you have to take your eye off the present! Don't let guilt and other's expectations prevent you from living a life that makes you happy. Love others...and allow them to love you back! Lastly, my friend Art sent me an email that classically stated,"Even when I am in pain...I don't have to be one!" Haahaa I love it.


P.S. Jim Hatch...you have been able to make me smile since I was a little girl! I love hearing from you.


P.S.S. Karen...Thank you for your support and the support you give to Glenda.

2 comments:

  1. Kim, Again I'm encouraged by your words! It took my getting very sick to realize that it is important to savor each minute...for you never know when the minutes may end. That brings on a whole new appreciation for the ways God blesses us continually. We're continuing to pray for you and the daily challenges you face. Please remember you are an encouragement to many around you by the ways you are handling this difficult (what a mild word!) situation. From experience, I know your children will be stronger and more compassionate people because of the things they are seeing in you.
    I hope they have a good start to school this year. Karen

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  2. You are truly a blessing and encouragement. One of the first scriptures I learned to memory was Php 4:4 "Rejoice in the Lord always." When we are feeling blessed, it's so easy to rejoice. But it's so much harder when we are hurting. But those are the times where we are most able to see God working in our lives, all for the good. It's a powerful choice to choose to be happy when you really just want to crawl under a rock. And God will most certainly bless you even more so because you are glorifying Him for all to see! Stay strong and keep rejoicing - all praises be to God! Love, Angelique

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