You talking to me?

Try not to act too surprised when I reveal the current opinion of my doctors. It is the consensus of my many specialists that I might be hard headed. Seriously! It seems that I have been in an ever present state of denial since my initial onset. I am an optimist, and kept thinking that I belonged in tights with a cape. While the image in your head must be precious...it is apparently not accurate. I have been waiting for the grand return of my former self, but she will remain M.I.A. for a little while longer. I was under the impression that I needed to rebuild my stamina by pushing through the fatigue. But the fatigue was apparently by threshold.

I met with my doctor for the first time since my relapse two weeks ago. I have made a great recovery, but with every relapse comes high risk. Preventing another relapse is top priority. We have the choices of switching to chemotherapy, re-starting the steroids, or giving my current medicine the chance to work. We have opted for the third choice. In order for this to work, I am going to have to reduce the stress in my life. Stress and fatigue are the biggest triggers.

There are certain things in life that cannot be prevented. Death and illness of your loved ones is one of them. Being a mother is something that I wouldn't change if my life depended on it. That leaves work. My doctors feel that it will be best if I do not work and concentrate on resting my body and mind so that we can actually achieve full remission. I am waiting on some lab results to see if we need to increase the immune suppressants.

I will keep all of you up to date as things change. Have a very wonderful weekend. There is a big 5K in the Hill Country in the morning that all should attend!